Personal Narrative With Song lyrics.

During my life all I’ve done is hurt people even though is not on purpose.
I choose this song: Sorry, Blame it on Me by Akon.

When I was 13 years old, I ditch school for the first time. It was easy for me because my mom never checked my attendance records. I wasn’t a bad girl back then because I didn’t used drugs and my grades were A’s and like 3 or 4 B’s only. I was a good student, I was between the 5 smartest students in class and ditching didn’t affect me at all. I fail two classes but that was because I was lazy and stupid. What’s funny is that the classes I failed were the easiest ones: Physical Education (PE) and Spanish. However, I make up those classes and passed them with A’s.

There was a problem in me and I just kept ditching classes but I didn’t fail any other class again. But the ditching was still there and sooner or later my mom was going to find it out. That didn’t stop me and kept doing it. Then, the unexpected came and my mom finally paid attention to my absences. She was so mad about it that she didn’t talk to me for almost 2 weeks. When she finally decided to talk with me again the only thing that she told me that she was ashamed of my actions and that I just did the unexpected. I was sad but at the same time I wanted to tell her that I did it because she never let me go out with my friends. She had me living like a nun, all the time inside four walls. I wanted to go out and I did it . But I didn't had the courage to tell her all of that, so I just stood quiet.

After that time I kept doing what I wanted but this time I was more careful and till now she doesn't know the things that I've done. I know that if she finds that out, she'll never talk to me again but this time for a month (if I'm lucky). I know that I do bad things but I know how to control myself.

" I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet"

Sometimes I get the feeling of telling her all the truth about myself but I know that if I do that I'll break her heart and I don't want to do it. She has been a great mom, she supports me in school and we have a good relationship. She has mistakes too, all people do. There are things that are like clouds in a sunny day saying that is going to rain, but still she's great. I had never told her that I love her, I don't know why but I feel weird when I'm about to say it and at the end I don't say it.

" Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world"

There were times when I just insulted my mom in my mind. It's like if hate and madness were controling me by bloking all the other things in my mind. I know that what I did was wrong, but in that moment you don't think, you just act.

"I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done"

I doesn't matter what I say to excuse myself at the end she's always right, somehow she always is. I'm trying to change but its hard once you get used to it. So one day I puted this song and I remember what I have done and change it. Eventhough I can't change the past, I can change the future.


"I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me"

All I know is that I'm the cause of all the effects in my life.